Archive for 2011
Fearless Life
"Two caterpillars each spun a cocoon. In that protected atmosphere they were transformed into beautiful butterflies. Just when they were ready to fly free, their fears gripped them.
One butterfly, being so fragile, thought to herself: 'Life outside has so many dangers. I can be torn to bits and eaten by a bird. If a predator doesn't kill me, I might be torn apart in a storm. A lightning bolt could strike me dead. The rain could weigh on my wings and send me crashing to the ground. Besides, spring is ending.
What if the nectar runs out?
Who will help me?'
The risks were in fact many, and the little butterfly had reason to be scared. Frightened, she decided not to leave. She remained in her protected cocoon, but having no means to survive, she died a sad death, starved, dehydrated and, worst of all, walled in by the world she had spun....
The other butterfly, was also apprehensive. She was afraid of the world outside, knowing that many butterflies didn't last a day outside the cocoon. But she loved freedom more than she feared the dangers that could befall her. And so she set off, flying in the direction of all the dangers.
She chose to be a wanderer in search of the only thing that defined her essence...."
This story really inspired me to go & achieve dreams, live life in & out thoroughly, be unafraid to take risks & embrace failures. Give chance to chances and say, 'What the fuck' , you know.. Now,.... DANCE!
You Are My Religion
Here's the salient points: ~
Never I ever felt more exposed of my flaws, of my barren soul.
I was naked, I was Molested by the Truth. Every fucking cum I shit was spotlight. ..And then some..
Only now I learned the unpalatable ugly truth that engineers me to be a better motherFucker!
The Cognizance of Philosophical references is the new black.
Only now my performance appraisal is rectified, justified, magnified 10x times than before.
I no longer drank my sorrow into a stupor, nor do I blame the world for my problems. I learned that 'I am my own Problem, I am also my own Solution.'
So no more feeling self-pity or feeling like shit in the morning during the aftermath like a hooker after 'strenuous labour for that hard-earned money'.
And because of this, I would love to share the lessons, the wonders, the beautiful shit to u so u can b careful Little Red Riding Hood, its a Wolves' World..
So I will promise to update my blog at least once a week, 1 for this blog, the other is http://peacedrugs.blogspot.com/ , where its about Book Reviews & Suggestions to u love.
Till then, Everyday My mouth awaits all its glory it is about to give me..
'I am no longer a Dormant Volcano, I'm an Active ALIVE BEST MOTHERFUCKER out there!'
Look out world, cause this Scheisse is a Star ☆
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P.S : Listened to Beyonce's new songs, 10 stars for 'Countdown', '1+1', 'The Best Thing I Never Had'.
Also saw the movie 'Bridesmaids', best chick flick yet! 9/10
Not just a Dilettante, A Judas Badass!
"Religion is like a penis, it's fine to have one and, be proud of it. But don't whip it out in public or try to shove it down my throat." ...
~.....But what if I like to be Chocked? Hahaha, fuck#@!
The most imperative aptitude to posses to want to transcend beyond extraordinary plain jane, to surge-emerge as a Mega powerhouse & a force to be reckon with is to be Uber Creative, that Out of The Box high on crack marching on the right anthem mad-scientist Einstein Big Bang Bom!
It seems that the public & the media are really excoriate Gaga for her 'Outspoken' recently out song 'Judas' the badass.. Like the church communities are in no sympathy at all crucifying her after hearing about her upcoming music video for Judas where she is to portray Mary Magdalene in a modern day Jerusalem, a somewhat Christ-belief revolution.
To quote what Gaga said about her premiering the otherwise Controversial video,
"Its more about celebrating Faith rather than questioning it."
I personally don't think we should ask any sort of 'Outside' Validation, the needing for our work to be filtered by the public peers pussy about what we do or on what we believe in!
The creative process is Vomiting..
Giant Regurgitation of thought & feelings.
You have to honour your vomit..
Kiss the feet of the vomit, Be Large & in Charge, Be a BADASS MOTHER+FUCKERS! Hell ya!
"The Quality of Work depends on the Quality of Imagination." Commit to it like Crazy!
(I been a Bad Boy... Tie me up & Spank me hard!)
Valedictorian? Nah, still Overt NonConformity Pride

" If Chance is our God, and Accidents our Demons, we will be children."
My life this week have some interesting events unfolded before me for the 1st time in the longest time..
Yesterday, I 'allegedly' received the Valedictorian accolade 2010, which is nothing really...(Modest) Because I absolutely resent awards & shit cause it tends to inoculate this languorous atmosphere that makes u feel 'Satisfied' & complacent.
'Be careful about feeling satisfied, that's when u will stop striving for improvement.'
So I feigned my 'appreciative, so-exultant & proud' feeling upon receiving the award during the entire award ceremony.. Grinned the edge of Glory till my face muscle crammed! Literally..
Hate Receiving 'Plastic' awards, but Love Giving back to people!
Learned this week u Can't impress EVERYBODY!
I constantly felt like I am the only one putting concerted effort in every conversation that I had!
Always gave away Ingratiating laughter... Happy Fool..
Come on ppl, its a teamwork effort! ~ U smile, I smile...
& finally I want to divulge (for a while) onto the 'Love' department...
'I'm such a holy fool, oh baby it's so cruel, but I'm still in love with Judas baby!'
Omg, Love that song because I know exactly how it is.. Abhorrent towards 'that person' for slaying the heart brutally & deeply unapologetic... but still Love them cause of their 'Judas Love, Judas Lust' quality about them... But Trust was a foreign & elusive word as it was never the same again..
'The kind of Perspective that only comes from Experience...'
+ I guess I'm trying to explain the unexplainable.. These thought always ran Uninvited into my mind..
Goals, Human Behaviour, & Love.. Hopelessly feeling disgruntled everytime. ...So F*$K OFF! Hahaha!
In a World BLACK & WHITE.

"My world rife with social malaise..
Completely unsullied with its arbitrary twist & turns
Drowned in despondency & gloomy
Disgruntled yet Again by the staid thinking of humanity...
But, my soul not Horribly maimed by the Malice.
No Blotches!
Cause the heart wants what it wants, "An EGALITARIAN SOCIETY". A race which bears no prejudice, no boundaries, & no ANNEX!
I rebuff THESE.......!
Barricaded HELL!"
~@ Hahaha, so Emo my poem. I admit tough that I felt politically & socially supine at times when I'm at the darkest hour.
BUT Have to, Must I Go on life with True Grit!
Current Hiatus
My understatement of the now, " WE humans are Faulty"!
I twisted the doorknob, opened the door and stepped outside into a world that looked flat, square & one-dimensional.
"They" are so Vapid when an infinitesimal ounce of Excitement had been injected into their mundane lives...
Giving up transcend The will, the desire, the need to continue living..
As I am getting up from bed, some force pulled me back, as if Gravity has magnified; the soles of my feet felt heavy with the weight of iron chains, my ankles felt anchored in water...
I became Immobilized!
Life, full of depressing tone & outcome from the receiving end,...
But Thank God the great for JOKES!!!
The View

I roam on this earth, BEING the Passionate Spectator that I am... Watching, cast a furtive glance over my shoulder at "Them"...
The Earth trembles with the clatter of hooves, chaotic beings that they are.... Ignoring when strangers say run as fast as you can.."Noisy Reprisals"...
The Question of Existence: defying the Oppressive Power in the world that I can neither participate in nor control.
I cursed at my feet for trudging on this harsh terrain...
Breathing heavily against the window...fogged the glass and blurred the outside world..
Yes, my own breath WAS OBSTRUCTING THE VIEW OF THE WORLD!
I instinctively felt trapped in the Cruel & Insane world saturated with humans...
Those charming, compulsive liar.. DAMN!
What is my reaction to all this? JUST merely Shaking my head to dispel the memories of the night before......
- Editor's note:
1st of, apology for not blogging in time of need..
2nd, is it Gay?! listening to 'Dear John' by Taylor Swift??? Guess so...hehe. What the heck!?

