LIBERACE

" If Chance is our God, and Accidents our Demons, we will be children."


My life this week have some interesting events unfolded before me for the 1st time in the longest time..
Yesterday, I 'allegedly' received the Valedictorian accolade 2010, which is nothing really...(Modest) Because I absolutely resent awards & shit cause it tends to inoculate this languorous atmosphere that makes u feel 'Satisfied' & complacent.
'Be careful about feeling satisfied, that's when u will stop striving for improvement.'


So I feigned my 'appreciative, so-exultant & proud' feeling upon receiving the award during the entire award ceremony.. Grinned the edge of Glory till my face muscle crammed! Literally..
Hate Receiving 'Plastic' awards, but Love Giving back to people!


Learned this week u Can't impress EVERYBODY!
I constantly felt like I am the only one putting concerted effort in every conversation that I had!
Always gave away Ingratiating laughter... Happy Fool..
Come on ppl, its a teamwork effort! ~ U smile, I smile...


& finally I want to divulge (for a while) onto the 'Love' department...
'I'm such a holy fool, oh baby it's so cruel, but I'm still in love with Judas baby!'
Omg, Love that song because I know exactly how it is.. Abhorrent towards 'that person' for slaying the heart brutally & deeply unapologetic... but still Love them cause of their 'Judas Love, Judas Lust' quality about them... But Trust was a foreign & elusive word as it was never the same again..
'The kind of Perspective that only comes from Experience...'


+ I guess I'm trying to explain the unexplainable.. These thought always ran Uninvited into my mind..
Goals, Human Behaviour, & Love.. Hopelessly feeling disgruntled everytime. ...So F*$K OFF! Hahaha!